The Barfs bring the Blues

Well, here's the real reason I chose to play "catch up" on my journaling today. Today was ROTTEN and I needed to get back to what is important in my life. My family! This was somehow therapeutic to sit and remember the fun we've had over the last several months. I needed some happy thoughts to help clear the clouds of sadness.
This morning we took our sweet Jake to St. Marks Hospital bright and early. We met our favorite poop doctor (as she calls herself), Dr. Harnsberger, who is a pediatric gastroenterologist. She did an upper endoscopy with biopsies on our little guy. This comes in response to 3-4 months of random vomiting. Here a little, there a little, some days a lot (like 14 times)!
Well, our sneaking suspicions were confirmed. Dr. Harnsberger feels very confident that Jake has celiac disease. The biopsies will confirm this on Monday, but she was able to identify it just from the abnormal look of his small bowel. With Kelsey and Joe both celiac, you would think this would be "no biggie." Well, no way. I've still cried multiple times today and I've just decided that it's okay to be sad. When you find out something is going to permanently change your child's life, you have the right to be sad.

* Update - (Please read more current posts, as there were surprises with the biopsy. Negative for celiac.)

I love you Jake! I'm sorry that life is a trial and you have a new challenge to endure. I wish Heavenly Father would just give me all the trials so you could just have fun, like kids should. But that's not how it works. I guess this will make you stronger and someday you will sit and laugh at me for being so dramatic and sad. Love you to the moon and back!